Many people experience anxiety in some fashion every day… some, more than others. I’ve had my fair share of panic attacks due to my Anxiety Disorder, and sometimes it can be challenging to express the numerous thoughts and feelings that run through one’s mind in those moments.

I’ve been fortunate and I’m pretty thankful that I’ve only had one this year so far, and even that was just a strange occurrence, as opposed to the past. I wrote this some time ago to represent a bit of how it feels.

*I’m in a good place right now, so no this is not reflective of my current mindset.

By: Drew Swenson

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dull throb

locked door

broken knob

heavy breathing

no breath left to take

why oh why

must my body be forsaked

Creeping condition

a war of attrition

gnawing at my soul

nothing left to give or take

my heart rendered, not whole

Day by day

night by night

neither black

nor white

myriad miasma

my emotions on which I dwell

for there is no rest for this wicked soul

my own personal hell